The Long Defeat

This particular song has been ministering to me in these last few months. The lyrics were inspired by a Christan writer,
and speak to my heart.
Ministry, though rewarding, is also a great burden to carry.
It's truly one that's "too heavy to carry, but impossible to leave".
Cut and paste www.rhapsody.com/saragroves into your address bar and click on "The Long Defeat" if you'd like to listen to the song.

I have joined the long defeat
that falling set in motion
all my strength and energy
are raindrops in the ocean

so conditioned for the win
to share in victor's stories
but in the place of ambition's din
I've heard of other glories

I pray for an idea
and a way I cannot see
It's too heavy to carry
and impossible to leave

I can't just fight when I think I'll win
that's the end of all belief
and nothing has provoked it more
than a possible defeat

I pray for an idea
and a way I cannot see
It's too heavy to carry
and impossible to leave

We walk a while we sit and rest
we lay it on the altar
I won't pretend to know what's next
but what I have I've offered

I pray for a vision
and a way I cannot see
It's too heavy to carry
and impossible to leave

I pray for inspiration
and a way I cannot see
It's too heavy to carry
and impossible to leave